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central_librarylogs2015-11-19 09:34 pm
alec_lightwood) wrote in central_librarylogs2015-11-19 09:34 pm
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Who: Alec Lightwood and Sebastian Carter Hokori-Anderson - [closed]
What: Discussing what happens after their shared nightmare
When: After the nightmare event, before Thanksgiving
Where: The Atrium
Warnings: None at this time
Notes: N/A
Alec had been coping with the nightmare and what the demon had said to him during that strange experience. Magnus had helped but there were certain things that he couldn't say to his boyfriend. He didn't want to say too much about what the Prince of Hell had said to him even if Magnus had been pleased that he'd put an arrow into the demon. Alec couldn't discuss Robert or the accusations of betrayal.
He hadn't said anything about what he'd seen of Sebastian's life, keeping those secrets to himself. That wasn't something to share no matter how close he was to Magnus.
Most of what happened he kept to himself, letting it eat away at him until he'd started talking to Sebastian. Now he knew that he shouldn't have stayed away from his friend. They'd both needed to see that the other was safe and to talk about some of what happened.
Knowing that, it still surprised him how much lighter he felt when Sebastian leaned close to him, smiling despite the tears he'd shed earlier. Wrapping an arm around Sebastian's shoulders, he started to relax for the first time since the nightmare. "I'm glad too. I'm sorry I didn't check on you sooner."
What: Discussing what happens after their shared nightmare
When: After the nightmare event, before Thanksgiving
Where: The Atrium
Warnings: None at this time
Notes: N/A
Alec had been coping with the nightmare and what the demon had said to him during that strange experience. Magnus had helped but there were certain things that he couldn't say to his boyfriend. He didn't want to say too much about what the Prince of Hell had said to him even if Magnus had been pleased that he'd put an arrow into the demon. Alec couldn't discuss Robert or the accusations of betrayal.
He hadn't said anything about what he'd seen of Sebastian's life, keeping those secrets to himself. That wasn't something to share no matter how close he was to Magnus.
Most of what happened he kept to himself, letting it eat away at him until he'd started talking to Sebastian. Now he knew that he shouldn't have stayed away from his friend. They'd both needed to see that the other was safe and to talk about some of what happened.
Knowing that, it still surprised him how much lighter he felt when Sebastian leaned close to him, smiling despite the tears he'd shed earlier. Wrapping an arm around Sebastian's shoulders, he started to relax for the first time since the nightmare. "I'm glad too. I'm sorry I didn't check on you sooner."
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Introducing Alec was never going to be a problem. He didn't think he'd ever go back. No matter how much he missed his mother and his library and his wardrobe. There were other things, but he was learning to live without them or learning to be patient as it seemed the Market was a good way to get what they needed often enough.
He didn't think he could say anything about Christian Scott or Jack. He hadn't protected himself and he hadn't saved anyone. But saying so felt wrong. Disrespectful and hurtful. Alec's world sounded terrifying and difficult and painful. To be born into his world was a great burden, but not one he thought Alec would wish differently. Or maybe he would. He wondered about Alec and Magnus being here in the Library and if that would change for them one day. They were safe here. But for people who faced dangers their entire life, where demons were real and death was part of the reality of everyday life, could they remain happy here?
Sebastian smiled with a more pleasant topic of conversation to focus on. "Something like geography? Find this mark on the map that is Alec's body." Saying it outloud made him blush a bit, but he inhaled at the thought and nuzzled his nose and lips across Alec's cheek and jaw, finding his ear and neck. "I'm really happy to be here with you, Alec."
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And there was one part of Sebastian's comment that Alec knew wasn't true. "There was a boy back home named Simon. He's the one that saved me from the Greater Demon. He saved Magnus and Izzy when I couldn't. He saved my family when I was helpless to do anything to protect them. He wasn't a Shadowhunter when he saved me and he was a vampire when he saved Izzy and Magnus but he never stopped being the person he was before. He was a hero and he wasn't part angel or part demon. He was completely normal like you think you are and he was a hero."
Just like with Simon, there was something vital and special in Sebastian but he didn't see it in himself.
Alec hoped that Sebastian would never have to go through the things Simon had. Or even the kinds of things that Shadowhunters dealt with on a daily bases. Mundanes didn't have to worry about the same things that Downworlders and Shadowhunters did. There were dangers, that bully Alec had seen in the nightmare proved that, but it was a different type of danger. One that he'd find a way to protect Sebastian from if he was allowed to.
Laughing softly at the comparison, he turned his head to steal a kiss. "I don't have all the marks. Most of my body's covered but I doubt anyone could have all the runs at once." And he had one that only one other person shared... and one that Jace had never worn. An odd thought that made him suddenly miss his parabatai.
Shivering at the attention to his neck, Alec grinned and pulled Sebastian closer. "I'm happy to be here with you. I didn't expect this to happen but I'm grateful that it did."