His thoughts were still conflicted but at least he hadn't gone behind Magnus' back. He hadn't done anything hurtful and nothing beyond kissing and some touching would happen. It still felt strange. Alec hadn't ever expected anyone to find a place in his life. Then he met Magnus and now he had Sebastian. It was strange and wonderful but he felt like he had to be careful so he didn't hurt anyone he cared about.

When Sebastian took his hand and started staring, Alec couldn't help wiggling his fingers. He didn't pull away just moved them to see how his friend would react.

As they walked to Sebastian's room, Alec noted his surroundings, memorizing where it was and making sure that none of the strange creatures that lived in the Library were nearby. Sebastian's room reminded him of how his room would be if it weren't for Magnus. He was the one with the eye for color and how to make a place comfortable with minimal resources. It was a skill that Alec hadn't really acquired since he was content as long as there was somewhere comfortable to sleep, somewhere for his weapons, and books were available.

"It doesn't have to be. If it works for you, it's enough."

But that didn't mean that Sebastian didn't miss things from home. "I wish you had your cello." Alec almost blushed at how wistful he sounded. One of the things he truly missed was music. "Or that we could find you one. I've been hoping that the market would open to a place where you could buy one." The Librarians had promised that they would always have enough money to buy whatever they wished. "If you're happy with what you have, that's what matters..." Which really didn't match what he'd said about the cello. "I just thought you'd like to have one and I'd love to hear you play someday."