"I need to know I'm not crazy. Tell me I'm not...did I die? I can't remember anything after he-" Now was not the time to puke all over his parabatai, but every time he thought of what had just happened he felt as if someone had turned his entire world upside down.

It's not like he didn't know Valentine was a crazy murderous bastard. He just hadn't actually thought the man he'd called father would kill him so easily.

No. He needed to get over the shock of it. Deep breaths.

"I just need...I need to breathe."