Alec understood not knowing who or what you were anymore. He'd felt that way when he'd been fighting against old traditions and the need to please his parents. Even after outing himself, he'd still struggled, trying to please everyone. It hadn't been until Magnus had almost died and they'd agreed to work on their relationship that Alec had finally let go of the past. "You're more than you think and you'll figure it out in time. I didn't know until a few weeks ago."
It felt like longer but stopping a couple apocalypses changed a person's perceptions of time.
"But I do know that you're more than you think you are. You're too hard on yourself." Alec had been too until he'd decided to focus on the present instead of what the future might bring.
Which might be why he was more open to the idea of having feelings for two people instead of the traditional 'one person only' situation. Sebastian was strong and alluring in a way that Alec hadn't expected when they'd first met. His heart was more accepting than anyone Alec had ever met, never looking at Alec or Magnus like they were something to be feared or hated.
He knew that Magnus liked Sebastian even if they hadn't officially met. If caring for both didn't hurt either, then why fight whatever was going on between them? He had the feeling that they'd be good for each other even if he wasn't sure he'd ever find the words to describe that theory.
"You might be a mess, but that's okay if you don't let it get the better of you. It's okay to be scared too. No one is every completely fearless." Unless a rune was involved but that wasn't important now. "I really like you too but I'm hoping that there's more to you liking me than me being real." It was okay if that was all it was. He understood the idea of rebound relationships but Alec would be more cautious of what happened between them.
"You don't have to move but I will still be here, be real, when you decide to take your hand away."
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It felt like longer but stopping a couple apocalypses changed a person's perceptions of time.
"But I do know that you're more than you think you are. You're too hard on yourself." Alec had been too until he'd decided to focus on the present instead of what the future might bring.
Which might be why he was more open to the idea of having feelings for two people instead of the traditional 'one person only' situation. Sebastian was strong and alluring in a way that Alec hadn't expected when they'd first met. His heart was more accepting than anyone Alec had ever met, never looking at Alec or Magnus like they were something to be feared or hated.
He knew that Magnus liked Sebastian even if they hadn't officially met. If caring for both didn't hurt either, then why fight whatever was going on between them? He had the feeling that they'd be good for each other even if he wasn't sure he'd ever find the words to describe that theory.
"You might be a mess, but that's okay if you don't let it get the better of you. It's okay to be scared too. No one is every completely fearless." Unless a rune was involved but that wasn't important now. "I really like you too but I'm hoping that there's more to you liking me than me being real." It was okay if that was all it was. He understood the idea of rebound relationships but Alec would be more cautious of what happened between them.
"You don't have to move but I will still be here, be real, when you decide to take your hand away."