Sebastian stared at where his hand was still pressed against Alec's chest. He ached. He missed Jack so very much right then. But he also really liked Alec. A lot.

"I don't think I know what I am anymore."

He really didn't. He thought he did. He thought he'd known all along. He thought he'd Been defiantly fighting against everything everyone ever said about him. And then he'd met Jack and his world had changed.

Standing here with Alec he felt like his world was changing again. It scared him. But not changing scared him more. He didn't want to be alone again. And he didn't want to be the person others had told him he was. He wanted to be the person Jack had fallen in love with. He wanted to be the person Alec thought was worth knowing.

He was worth knowing right? He was worth being noticed by someone as beautiful and open as Alec?

Sebastian took a quick breath in and felt his heart beat faster as he forced himself to look into Alec's eyes again.

"I never figured out casual flirting either. I don't do anything I don't mean. I'm a mess. And I am scared, Alec. Because I really like you. And I'm scared because you are warm and real and if I take my hand away...you won't be real anymore."