The uncertainty caused Alec to continue. "I know most people don't believe in it but the things I've seen.. the people I've talked to. Most of the things that most mundanes think aren't true are real. Angels, demons, vampires, werewolves, ghosts... Why can't there be an afterlife?" After reading Magnus' journal, he believed in it even more. "Magnus knew someone who believed that everything is a wheel. Eventually you meet the people you love again. I have to believe that."

The weight of his belief had to sound strange. He nodded toward Magnus. "Or I'll never get to see him again."

The comment about not deserving someone hit a little too close to home. How many times had he thought the same thing? "If he was amazing and he loved you, he wouldn't be pleased that you said that. I'm sure he thought you deserved him. He probably wondered what he'd done to be able to be with you.

"It's okay. If you need someone to talk to, I can listen. I do it all the time for Izzy and Jace... when the finally decide that they should talk instead of sulk or beat people up."