It wasn't a thought he was willing to speak out loud. Not to Alec. Not to anyone. He imagined they would all say he was being overdramatic or making excuses for not moving on with his life. But there was no other explanation. He had finally found someone wonderful. Someone who loved him and wanted him without wanting to change him. Acceptance. Love. Happiness.
And he'd wasted it all.
No. He wouldn't see Jack again.
But even as he stared at Alec, uncertain what to say in response to that, he wanted to believe he could see Jack again someday. He wanted to believe there was a chance they would find each other. But he couldn't allow himself. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
"He was...he was a-amazing. More than I deserved."
As soon as the words left his lips he inhaled deeply and quickly started drying his face, clearing his throat.
"I'm sorry. I don't...I haven't...talked to anyone..."
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It wasn't a thought he was willing to speak out loud. Not to Alec. Not to anyone. He imagined they would all say he was being overdramatic or making excuses for not moving on with his life. But there was no other explanation. He had finally found someone wonderful. Someone who loved him and wanted him without wanting to change him. Acceptance. Love. Happiness.
And he'd wasted it all.
No. He wouldn't see Jack again.
But even as he stared at Alec, uncertain what to say in response to that, he wanted to believe he could see Jack again someday. He wanted to believe there was a chance they would find each other. But he couldn't allow himself. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
"He was...he was a-amazing. More than I deserved."
As soon as the words left his lips he inhaled deeply and quickly started drying his face, clearing his throat.
"I'm sorry. I don't...I haven't...talked to anyone..."