The way Alec said those words. So easily. Whatever Sebastian had been expecting it hadn't been that. Boyfriend. Magnus was his boyfriend and they were here together. Given a second chance.
It hit him. Hard. His gut. His chest. Like someone had knocked the air from his lungs. An unexpected understanding. There were no second chances and he couldn't imagine finding a solution or healing. Jack was gone. And he would never get the chance to introduce Jack as his boyfriend the way Alec had just now.
It took everything he had to push it all back down where it belonged, the regrets, the anger, the emptiness, and he turned away quickly to wipe away the tears. Not here. Not now.
"Allergies." Sebastian cleared his throat, composed himself before he looked to where the others were. He had a choice. He could choose to play it safe the way he always had. Or he could take a chance. Ignore the instinct to run away. He doubted there was another person alive like Jack who would waste their time chasing him down if he kept walking away. If only he hadn't wasted so much of Jack's time... "Maybe when they're not so busy."
His hands were still clenched, but hiding in the pockets of his coat now.
"To be honest I don't know about animals or tracking or anything useful. I came because I wanted to try and help and I couldn't resist stepping through a magical portal to another world. My world is pretty boring in comparison."
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It hit him. Hard. His gut. His chest. Like someone had knocked the air from his lungs. An unexpected understanding. There were no second chances and he couldn't imagine finding a solution or healing. Jack was gone. And he would never get the chance to introduce Jack as his boyfriend the way Alec had just now.
It took everything he had to push it all back down where it belonged, the regrets, the anger, the emptiness, and he turned away quickly to wipe away the tears. Not here. Not now.
"Allergies." Sebastian cleared his throat, composed himself before he looked to where the others were. He had a choice. He could choose to play it safe the way he always had. Or he could take a chance. Ignore the instinct to run away. He doubted there was another person alive like Jack who would waste their time chasing him down if he kept walking away. If only he hadn't wasted so much of Jack's time... "Maybe when they're not so busy."
His hands were still clenched, but hiding in the pockets of his coat now.
"To be honest I don't know about animals or tracking or anything useful. I came because I wanted to try and help and I couldn't resist stepping through a magical portal to another world. My world is pretty boring in comparison."